Friday, August 8, 2008
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I been too sick to post. Sick of life. New developments in family really quite sad so i can't say more. Needless to say, today I received some better news so at least not all wrong. Then more shit from closer to me comes along heh heh.
PW still there and makes me feel damn pissed, the fuxin source screw up for EoM so need redo, after i spent 4 hours doing it in the first fuxin place. Completely redo. Damn. I had a trashy time at RJ nat day celebrations, all ccb go find girls one lol left a small grp of us dunno wad to do so we went over to LT5 to slack. At least there we had some quiet. After that, 4P celebration! YAY! Now this is what I call fun. We go the roof of C block, take many obscene pictures and play "surprise buttsecks!" and glowstick bottle soccer and stuff, swear damn loud as well heh. Never had fun since school started till that one time, this is testament to how failure RJC is as compared to RI. And the only difference in RJC is that, well you see, we are no longer a single sex school...
In fact, I manage to get the disadvantages of a mixed school without any of the benefits. I get stupid girls bitching about me behind my back, and thinking all sorts of really dumb things about me as well, while I do not get the fun of having a girl-relationship. (since even if i had a close girl friend she would be rumoured to be my "girlfren" by other stupid people) Failage. I really shuda gone to Anderson. Ah well, the grass always greener on the other side, if the skirts are not. Dark Knight was damn good, Joker is fricking pro and I emphathize with him a lot! :D "Some people just want to see the world burn".
Honestly, where has good gone in the world? Other than the friends I have (who almost exclusively are guys) and 4P, life holds nothing sacred to me. Family got rugby mad people. Also got darker problems. School can eat shit. Don't get me started on girls.
I need something to live for.
Please let me find that.
Actually I was hoping to find a girl I really liked so I could have something more than just friendship, I need love in this life full of hate. But then, I can't and probably won't find one who would heal this broken heart and not one who would rip it apart. Sei life sucks nay? Happy birthday Singapore anyway. At least the country still goes on. Olympics? Who cares a damn?
Look at this life through eyes full of hate,
This lust to spill blood, I cannot sate.
You promised me the sunrise,
at 9:01 AM
