Wednesday, August 27, 2008
HEEHEEHEE!
I finally figured out what I felt was missing even through the good feelings. I got this sense of lethargy and lifelessness, like I just want to sit and bask. For those who know the story of warcraft, this was probably the feeling that came over the Orcs after the demon influence was removed from them, the lethargy and sluggishness that replaced the bloodlust and violence. Is this what is right? Should I return to my old ways, or try walking this road? Somehow I feel more inclined to study like this though...
As for the object of this change, I think I shall leave this as an unrequited form of admiration, for surely, there would be no chance of gaining her love back.
Needless to say, I feel alright as things are, better to have the possibilities open and the gate open to these new emotions, rather than screwing up epically like the last times. I thought I knew what liking someone was like long ago, but that was only carnal, I feel the spiritual side now (i guess :P) and it seems to have cleansed me?
Even if I never get to be together with said party, I want this feeling to stay on in my heart to keep me from the dark.
And it means I ain't gay heh.
Fly away to a better place,
Every day feeling your embrace.
You promised me the sunrise,
at 7:40 AM
