Tuesday, August 26, 2008
This
Now. This is the only thing that has managed to cure me of hatred, instead of exuding black/red I currently exude a pink aura?
Hm. Perhaps there was more to life than just lust hate greed violence and blood.
Perhaps there was something more.
Something good inside me? I'd like to see where this leads. Something I never expected to be true suddenly dropped on me.
In wonderment I gaze on my surroundings with new sight. There is beauty in the world. There is hope and light. The rain is not cold and dampening anymore, but is cool and refreshing. Butterflies fly in front of me and I smile. Surreal things prove to be solid, and what once was my life is now a faraway dream of darkness and blood. This completely new feeling is indescribable. What has happened to me? I feel a drive to study? To make myself look better? To do good things?
All the evil songs I had are gone, no more black metal. Somehow they don't make me high or happy anymore.
All I need now is just to exist and perhaps glimpse you...
Who have brought me crashing down.
If I woke up now and this was a dream,
I can't decide if I should laugh or scream.
You promised me the sunrise,
at 8:18 AM