Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Green
There are times when I get jealous. Jealous of others around me. You see, everybody wants to be happy, but there are those who have to take the shit that the happy people leave behind.
Well.
I don't have charm, charisma or looks, which are what girls want. I don't have achievements in sports or school. My results suck. My thinking is warped, my language is foul. My family ain't rich. No girls have/would have expressed interest in me. I got no cool CCA or hobby, I like to fight.
These things make me unhappy, jealous. There are those with all the above and crave for more. There are those with nothing, not even food, and envy me. I can't say that I deserve pity, I'm only being human by being jealous, after all. If life were a story, I seem to be cast in the role of villain, in fact, I think I fit that role. Well, if I were the hero of a story, the story would be FuTDM. (F***ed up to de max)
Even so, I have one thing many people don't have. For only some, have the lotion. Well that was rubbish. Actually, very few people have some of these things I have. For one, an awesome class of sec 3 and 4, 4P! They accept me and even welcome me for who and what I am, which is more than I can say for almost everyone in RJ I've met, (other than my OG). Heh.
Another. I have true friends. Now, people would say, "But I have true friends!" Ah, you see, only in the crucible of flame does the facade melt and the truth reveal itself. Look, where are your friends now? Most friends like fair weather. They hate emo people who think life sucks. They only like cheerful and funny people. Well guess what? My friends kick their asses. Seriously, through this recent period of time then I realize, its the guys who are really pulling me through. My closest group of friends, who I always hang with, walked with me even through that dark night, and gave me the strength I needed to pull through. Who says guys cannot be sensitive and caring? Though, given the chance, I would do the exact same for them, if only I had the skill to not screw up if I tried, but I'd try anyway. Somehow, I can't imagine my girl-friends doing this. There's only so far a boy-girl relationship can go without getting married I guess. Plus they run at the sight of blood :P
DISCLAIMER:
If you feel offended by anything I said, tell me here. Both of us would benefit.
And now, we'll exchange our vows...
You promised me the sunrise,
at 8:51 AM
