Tuesday, September 16, 2008
If I could change my thousand destinies...
I would change them all to be with you.
Well, yeah. Those were some song lyrics.
But anyway, I seem to be too weak to quit the game.
Its like I cannot, somehow. Ah well. I will divert attention, just as I have done with my other problems. I understand now. It is not right that I make others suffer because of what problems I may have. What's personal should stay personal. I'm sorry for letting it eat at my working things, like PW and in class behavior.
As a very important disclaimer, I must let you know this, I am definitely not in as bad a case as I seem to be in from this page. Here are the feelings that I feel at the times when I'm at the most hopeless or down, I really still try to maintain my cheer in school and not let things affect my disposition. But then sometimes, the weight may be too heavy for me to bear. When times like that happen, don't blame me too bad for it.
Against other things, I think I just need to study, even though I don't really have the drive and the goal to do well. But, I feel that every normal guy has the freedom to like anyone they want, even if the person be someone out of reach, and NO ONE can fault me for this. I am only human, and susceptible to this stupid weakness that all men have.
Life, this game.
You promised me the sunrise,
at 8:05 AM
