Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Reveille
I realize now.
All things grow up one day. Even me, when I never thought I'd have to finally let go of that childish innocence which I was still clinging to even at this age, through all the trouble I've been through. But finally, I realize, its been futile. Now I really have no more ideals in life, the world has fallen to gray. Lost hopes, shattered dreams, broken friendships, false virtues, unfulfilled wishes, unspoken requests, all I see with clarity. Where is good, who is evil? Am I good or evil? I am neither and both. The world is complicated, and now I gotta face that, all my actions have consequences.
For those of you whom I've wronged somehow, forgive me, you know I would not have meant it in malice. If you find me annoying or stupid, whatever complaints you have, put them aside for now, I will apologize if I know what I did wrong. Give me this space so I can have somewhere where I'm free to express myself, since people find it distasteful to listen.
I was a fool chasing after a ridiculous dream of finding true love (what's more, its usually girls who dream of this), and now I see cold reality. No wonder poets all write emo love poetry. Having come to this point, I decided: "Hey, there's no hope in this, let's have fun while it lasts". Thus, let me now have fun...
I want to say I'd screw the world,
But what if the world was not a girl?
You promised me the sunrise,
at 7:28 AM