Saturday, January 17, 2009
Depression :(
And I can't seem to shake it. It's been on me since like the start of the week, if you noticed carefully, I was very antisocial and even left the clique to go home early almost every day, in fact, I only ate dinner once with them. Damn what's wrong with me? I bet it's got something to do with my relationship status yet AGAIN. Fuck, this time there's no direct link, but I'm pretty sure of it. Even the passing away of my great grandmother didn't cause this much gloom. So why's things like this? I even got the 1k budget I wanted to get my new guit.
I don't know, even though I'd been studying like a lot since school started, somehow, life seems to have lost its meaning. Could it have to do with my final admission of defeat? (you know what area this pertains to) Possible. Or maybe it's because dota sucks now and I can't even relieve myself that way. Or the timetable sucks. Or the weather sucks. I have no idea. All I know is that I don't feel like doing anything at all, so I've got to force myself to do things I think are interesting. Hate this. Better get over this soon, or I'd go insane. Damn, damn, damn. Hang in there man.
You promised me the sunrise,
at 7:31 AM