Thursday, February 5, 2009
Sick Romantic
Ah crap tomorrow's Take5.
Half of me wants to pon, remembering the painful memory of last year's. Then again, I might be able to purge those memories if I went and had fun. Damn, how to decide?
I figured that my life has many problems mainly because I keep looking at things in a very weird manner, perhaps if I were to try looking at things more conventionally...
But I can't! Somehow I don't know why but my perceptions are damn warped. For example, I don't even know if I believe in the concept of love at all any more. On one hand, I want to call it just a plain old desire for easy and convenient sex. On the other hand, I seemed to have found something more, though I couldn't quite place it. Besides, existing for sex is just some really stupid idea.
Honestly, given the choice, I'd much rather still live for love, even if it doesn't exist. At least the desired outcome is wholesome, and even if you never make it, you'd feel good anyway, because you tried till the end. Hopefully you'd never have to be proven wrong.
Well here I am ranting again but really my thoughts are messed up again and I need somewhere to air them. ARGH.
You promised me the sunrise,
at 7:02 AM