Tuesday, February 3, 2009
When the heart turns a shade of black
Heh contrary to the title's implications, I'm not going to emo again here (much :D). Instead, this here's dedicated to a very bleak day, a day where I just felt so damn sad and went to Suntec on my own to like think everything over, the wrong decisions, the misfortune of liking someone who'd never reciprocate, the bitterness of YET another failure. So, while I was out there, I concocted a random poem. It goes:
Humans
Have within us our personal
Demon.
Called forth from our own infernal
Love
That beautifully depicted
Curse.
Mindless fools sadly deluded
Embrace
Such a sweetly decorated
Malaise.
What a faithfully narrated
Love Story
Beneath it all it was really
Blasphemy.
Everything begins with merely
A kiss
Yet such a small act would unleash
The Beast.
...and here the poem tapers off into incoherence and insanity as I use graphic and disturbing images that kind of make no sense. "drink of the cup of iniquity taste, blood. Feel the curse of man in your broken, heart." Something like that. Gone already, I was at that point. But no matter, while the poem ain't good, it does bring to mind the terrible effects that false hope and love can ravage someone with. It's wise not to think of such things. But anyway, I'd like you sad single souls to know that this valentine's day, there will be at least someone like you who will sit under the starry sky thinking and dreaming of the person who will never come. Be comforted. Wow ok so I did manage to emo rant again. Grr better think positive man! (even if you look like a raptor D:)
Well J2 kind of sucks cause' like everyday we get some shit to do and thus cannot enjoy ourselves, can't even look at the oh-so-slight improvement in scenery in school. (I mean the girls :P) Meh whatever. Life goes through tough times, just bear it. Unless your're sick minded, don't read the next 2 lines, it's a 4P pep talk kinda thing so you know what it means.
"Life is like...my *any name for manhood here*. When it gets hard, that's when the fun starts!"
(Grins) Yeah it is. Fun time :D
You promised me the sunrise,
at 6:34 AM
