Thursday, March 19, 2009
A lie, when softly whispered, cannot be heard
It has been tiring. I spent so much time loafing and being sad that I missed a lot of my schoolwork, and been spending lots of time recently catching up on it. Recently, I've been talking a lot with Eddie and thinking. Ok, so my last attempts at chasing a girl
were epic. So I'd been behaving like an idiot all that (this?) time. So writing a book to confess was a real damn bad idea. So there's no wonder I failed badly. It's no one's fault but mine actually. That said, what should I do now, I asked myself. I guess it's time to move on. If along the way she'd like me then so be it, if not then there are others. There's definately someone in this world who'd let me be what I really am in front of her, and like me for it. To quote Eddie anyway, "your relationship story was not a tragedy. It was a bloody comedy!" Damn, so it
was true. Heh you'd think having prior bad experiences I'd have learnt. Ah well last year I was young. Now I'm more versed in the ways.
By the way, to those of you who like writing, you should drop the notion of using writing to confess. From past experience, it is the ultimate means by which to get rejekted, and not in a graceful manner at that. Even freaking Mr. Darcy from P&P found this out the hard way.
The next time I'm gonna grow the nuts to tell her straight to her face, whoever "she" may be in the future. There are actually many opportunities to find girls. Plus there are J1s now :D
But thinking deeper, I probably won't find a girlfriend from RJ. I think many RJ girls are idealistic, and I'd never be good enough for them, or I must be the "one" for them. That probably comes from reading too many love stories or dramas. But hey, I was once foolishly like that too. So I won't blame anyone. I think neighbourhood girls mostly take what they can get, so they'd be easier to appease. Plus, my school would then be a plus point on my side! XD
This is not to say that RJ girls suck though. Please don't get me wrong, you're all nice and such, but I'm just stating that my prospects would be higher on the other side. Think on it this way. How many of you RJ girls would date me if I asked, and you knew me well enough?
You'd probably see zero.
*grins* The grass is greener on the other side, even if the skirts are not.
You promised me the sunrise,
at 8:10 AM
