Friday, March 27, 2009
Loyalty of your heart?
Ok at least the CTs are over. But then comes the question that I'd put off till now. Which girl is the one? Or do I pick neither? Wth I was on the verge of my decision already, damn it! If either of you girls are reading this (you know who you are) then I'm sorry for my indecision, sorry to keep you hanging, well one of you anyway.
I thought to just try things out, see how they'd go. But then again I'm being advised by many people NOT to and in fact I don't see the reason why I should go dating if I know the other party is interested but I'm personally not interested. It would get your hopes up and I don't want that to happen, I know the extent of torment you'll go through if that happens.
I think going out on dates with no "intentions" is perfectly alright, I've done so before and I quite enjoy it, since both parties understand that the date does not like make them together or something, going out with a girl alone is an extremely rewarding and enriching experience, and I also learn how to please girls better ^_^
But anyway. Seriously won't this just go away? This whole week I had nightmares, and
she appeared in like 3out of the 5. Damn, not in some sicko sense, but in the sense that I'm afraid to lose her, even though I never had her, and dreaming of her with someone else is really some torture. I really need to get over this, if I'm not going to try further that is. Honestly, I think a crush won't torture me to this extent man.
I think my heart isn't loyal to my body, if not it wouldn't cause me so much trouble. Lol.
DAMN DAMN DAMN I WISH I WAS IN RI AGAIN!
I really really wish I could have been back in 4P, just for a year longer. I miss the carefree nature of things, we could really screw around, be ourselves, mess up and laugh at it cause' there wasn't anyone to show off to. To play, learn (not much though), sleep, eat in class with others like you. Hoai, miss it. Swearing loudly at each other and no one means it seriously, no one feels insulted either, just letting stress go. Or even the random crap, reckless driving, pardus, dota, softball in class, our trademark curtains, class challenges, lab escapades, the mealworms and conc. HCL in the cupboard, watching anime and playing com using the school stuff...man it goes on. The people too were awesome. But tomorrow, we get to meet up! Heh. At least I got my fun still. One more day, just one more day and I'll get down to this sticky business again. And meanwhile, I'll continue to hit the gym. First impressions
do count see? :D
You promised me the sunrise,
at 8:27 AM
