Sunday, May 24, 2009
Fall, finally
So that's it I guess. Home, school, everywhere I go I have to act like I'm so strong and have no problems in the other half of my life. And now that everyone around me has gone insane, I guess there's no one left to actually bare this twinned heart to. Per se, no one listens.
I'm sick of fighting, sick of pretending. Sick of screaming into endless nothing with only mocking echoes to listen to me. Sick of home and school. I know that this will probably only be read by those I don't need to tell this to. Yet, I don't care. Honestly, screw this pathetic love story, nay, screw my story. It's not just BGR that's got me this time. Although aside from taking my pride and joys, its also claimed my friends, I can't say it was completely to blame. These 2 years I haven't done any right things, or made any right choices.
Well I can't be expected to stay tough forever, unless I throw away the weak part of me that cares. Maybe I will after all. But anyway, I'm here today to shut down this blog. Cause' the night no longer holds wonder and freedom, but serves only to herald the torment of the next day.
Cause' we need more than a reason to live.
Because of you.
I'm in love with my lust,
Burning angel wings to dust.
You promised me the sunrise,
at 7:39 AM