Wednesday, December 30, 2009
At the tail end of 2009...
Well now since I would probably go havoc tomorrow anyway, here's the post for year's end. It has been a less eventful, more stressful year for me all around. While the events of last year conspired to mould my character into what it has become, it took a while and I only assumed myself at around June. Prior to that I still had random bouts and fits of insanity. Of course, I still maintain my havoc-based insanity, just not the crazy thinking kind of insane anymore. I think I am now more obliging and empathic towards others, and have increased self-control to such an extent I stand little risk of attacking people now despite provocation.
As to other things, I seem to have picked up a whole lot of new friends that at least I can sit and talk with. And increased the number of "people I know and say hi to" to boot. Hopefully I've been a better classmate this year too, though I kind of doubt it considering how little "class" there actually was this year. My love life has been quite stagnant, while obviously I'm not the happiest about this, I think it may be the best option for now. Though I must say I can fully understand how she must have felt last year when I was being the insane, thanks to personal experiences. It's gratifying to see that we have progressed despite the fiascos of the past. But still I guess I should not have done what I did.
Anyway, I'd seen recently several relationships all broken up, opening my eyes to the fact that in my naivety I never saw: Being in a relationship will NOT guarantee happiness. Especially fragile ones that are prone to breakups. Well I guess it will generally make one happy, but its not a 100% guarantee.
Ok I got some random bout of illness recently but hopefull I can recover fast enough to enjoy myself tomorrow! :)
Happy new year people, in case I get too wasted I cannot post on 2nd :)
You promised me the sunrise,
at 7:00 AM
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
If we only can't see a reason...
Hehh the 4P outing turned out quite lame. Became more of a Ben outing, with only Nat, Josh, Ben, Eddie, me and unexpectedly, Feng. Ahwell, it was quite fun I guess. But WE REALLY MUST HAVE A PROPER P OUTING SOON, EVEN IF I HAVE TO PLAN IT MYSELF!!
We need to gym. And more gym. And hopefully I can get some shape by the end of this hol.
Also, we need to jam. While I'd again been neglecting practice, I think I should get started hehh. After all one hopes to perform someday :)
Anyway, we really should have all the various class outings set in motion so we can like have one or 2 more mass gatherings before we part ways. Its quite sad, but it seemed like a very short while since I was WTF at the orientation before I got used to things. Seems like a very short while ago that I walked into a new class twice. That we used to go for class meals at the canteen, before the insane started. AH well maybe more posts on these individual groups laters. For now this is just a rant cause I am really bored and feel very out of place somehow, like I'd been uprooted. And who knows, maybe I have.
When you open your eyes,
When you look at the skies...
You promised me the sunrise,
at 6:37 AM
Sunday, December 20, 2009
And she had a name...
Man I have little time left before enlistment :(
Best to continue the gym programme in the hopes of regaining some mass before the day. Also I guess class chalet has died, referring to 7Bs. After all, what kind of chalet lacks me AND Ajay?
As for friends, I am looking forward to 4P outing on tuesday, will have more people turning up (hopefully) and also may be the last time we get such an outing for a very long time :(
You know, its hard to imagine not having to go back to school. Its like I am anticipating the hols to end and I go back to RJ or something and attend classes and lectures. I dunno, guess its been so long that I got used to the routine. Sure as hell miss it, even if I don't miss the politics.
Well I guess I have to fill my days with interesting events, if not may lapse into brooding melancholy again. Lan, jam, gym, movie, (gay) date, swim, whatever else you have in mind, TELL ME! I DON'T WANT TO WASTE AWAY NEEDLESSLY!
Oh and I think I should like give my blog a makeover, change the skin and summat.
And another thing, (this is to someone whom if your close enough to me, you'd know who) WHERE ARE YOU!! :(
You promised me the sunrise,
at 7:40 AM
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Sing, my angel of music
Well it has been a while, and here I am back again, after my sojourn through the lifestyle of RJ ends. So much has happened in so little time. My person has changed fairly greatly since last year. Gone is innocence and naivety. Being more pragmatic, I can now truly fit the Lawful Evil character type heheh. Though I'm pretty sure I have become less antagonistic towards others and have not lost my sense of humor, I guess if you talk to me seriously you'd see the difference.
Among others, I can safely say that there have been upheavals in all their lives as well. Several previously happy couples are now in ruin, while other lonely singles have found their joy in others. (I think you know who you are :D)
Ok now on to holiday updates. Prom was a major letdown. 88 bucks on average food and random phototaking? What a joke. I guess trying to look formal was the major part of what was so special that night. Due to the massive lack of people going from 7B, the pictures from there are quite sadly underpopulated, but 4P still lives long and healthy I see! However, not the same could be said about the chalet. It was another letdown. The turnout was, to be honest, pretty pathetic, with various people not coming at all or having to leave halfway for stuff. Ah well, I guess good things cannot last forever, and people would definately have other commitments to settle. Still, it was a good 4 days of slack, bringing back good memories of bygone days.
But memories...can only remain memories.
I have 3 weeks to enlistment and I don't really know what to do to make this a memorable time. My relationship status is, sadly, still awesomely messed up for some reason. Reiterating this for the I-don't-know-what-number time, I WOULD CHANGE J1 IF I COULD. But the past is set in stone, and no amount of wishing can help. Well if you're bored during this holiday do drop me a line or something cause I'm really very free. Surprisingly.
You promised me the sunrise,
at 8:26 AM
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Respawn timer
Ok since this hol has been quite eventful, yet boring at the same time, I have set my blog to respawn shortly. Should be about 1-2 days time so all you stalkers would be so happy already just reading this X)
You promised me the sunrise,
at 7:07 AM
