Wednesday, December 30, 2009
At the tail end of 2009...
Well now since I would probably go havoc tomorrow anyway, here's the post for year's end. It has been a less eventful, more stressful year for me all around. While the events of last year conspired to mould my character into what it has become, it took a while and I only assumed myself at around June. Prior to that I still had random bouts and fits of insanity. Of course, I still maintain my havoc-based insanity, just not the crazy thinking kind of insane anymore. I think I am now more obliging and empathic towards others, and have increased self-control to such an extent I stand little risk of attacking people now despite provocation.
As to other things, I seem to have picked up a whole lot of new friends that at least I can sit and talk with. And increased the number of "people I know and say hi to" to boot. Hopefully I've been a better classmate this year too, though I kind of doubt it considering how little "class" there actually was this year. My love life has been quite stagnant, while obviously I'm not the happiest about this, I think it may be the best option for now. Though I must say I can fully understand how she must have felt last year when I was being the insane, thanks to personal experiences. It's gratifying to see that we have progressed despite the fiascos of the past. But still I guess I should not have done what I did.
Anyway, I'd seen recently several relationships all broken up, opening my eyes to the fact that in my naivety I never saw: Being in a relationship will NOT guarantee happiness. Especially fragile ones that are prone to breakups. Well I guess it will generally make one happy, but its not a 100% guarantee.
Ok I got some random bout of illness recently but hopefull I can recover fast enough to enjoy myself tomorrow! :)
Happy new year people, in case I get too wasted I cannot post on 2nd :)
You promised me the sunrise,
at 7:00 AM
