Sunday, January 31, 2010
Back to the grind
Post number 143. Pretty fitting seeing as how 143 is just before the suay 144 which is how I'm feeling now. Since this week is where practically all my friends are gonna disappear for a while ;(
Damn, this is a time for me to regret not making more female friends. But now I still have a small window of opportunity to make it up. Screw relationships, girls I'm not looking at that so much now. I just want people to chat with after my 10 hour hardcore mental torture.
So, if I happen to call/message randomly even if I have never done so before, its part of my loneliness acting up, don't be afraid, better yet, be my friend :)
Got any event or gathering never hesitate to ask me along cause I will definitely go if I can make it yo. Even if you are going shopping, in which case I'd be happy to just be a bag rack and carry your bags for you. Thats how far I've fallen due to desperation and loneliness. Or will fall. Ah well its back to one more week of the grind (in both senses of the word, I'm gonna get more grinding lessons..hai), save me from the world of clubs, please someone.
Well its time for the curtains to rise.
Let them not close,
for then everyone dies.
You promised me the sunrise,
at 7:09 AM
Sunday, January 24, 2010
R me
Heh, havn't posted for the past 10 thousand years. Or at least it feels like it. Bearing a greater weight of responsibility on my shoulders, not just for myself but for others, has made me feel beyond my years, coupled with how slow time passed for the first week, makes me feel as if the past was a previous life.
Well, army is all about new experiences. I have my share of different experiences, sadly I can never experience what others will one day come to cherish in the way of memories. Nor would I have much to brag about to my kids (that is, if I can get married...). But surviving in this different environment teaches you many lessons, that ultimately, you have only yourself to watch your back in the outside world.
I've met many people from diverse backgrounds, in fact most of the people posted with me were completely different. One of them even has a kid. -_-
Well, I can say for one that, while I thought RJ was already a messed up place with all the backstab and politics, its really NOTHING compared to the world outside. Although seemingly I always prefer the past to the present, life is like that, for the cycle of growing up involves an increasingly heavy burden of responsibility and exposure to the corruption of the world.
Obviously there are perks to my position, but once my friends are all gone into army, I think I will be dying for any form of comradeship, from anyone I can find, so any girls who are free PLEASE DO NOT HESITATE TO TALK TO ME! I will be the nicest I can! :)
Its either this or I follow everyone else and go club, smoke, drink and find girls (in the less innocent sense). So hopefully some kind souls would have seen this and would wish to save me and be my buddies :D
Holy shit its going to be 2 years before I get back to schooling. I somehow miss the routine of schooling badly, despite having suffered in it for ages. Its pretty ironic that I'm actually saying this now. :(
And just hours ago, I was at the ECP for dinner with my family. I looked at the little kids running around and wrestling each other, and felt the full weight of my current position and age in life. I don't even remember how it felt like to be so carefree and innocent anymore...
PS- You'll probably notice that my hair is gone too :( :(
You promised me the sunrise,
at 7:00 AM
