Sunday, January 24, 2010
R me
Heh, havn't posted for the past 10 thousand years. Or at least it feels like it. Bearing a greater weight of responsibility on my shoulders, not just for myself but for others, has made me feel beyond my years, coupled with how slow time passed for the first week, makes me feel as if the past was a previous life.
Well, army is all about new experiences. I have my share of different experiences, sadly I can never experience what others will one day come to cherish in the way of memories. Nor would I have much to brag about to my kids (that is, if I can get married...). But surviving in this different environment teaches you many lessons, that ultimately, you have only yourself to watch your back in the outside world.
I've met many people from diverse backgrounds, in fact most of the people posted with me were completely different. One of them even has a kid. -_-
Well, I can say for one that, while I thought RJ was already a messed up place with all the backstab and politics, its really NOTHING compared to the world outside. Although seemingly I always prefer the past to the present, life is like that, for the cycle of growing up involves an increasingly heavy burden of responsibility and exposure to the corruption of the world.
Obviously there are perks to my position, but once my friends are all gone into army, I think I will be dying for any form of comradeship, from anyone I can find, so any girls who are free PLEASE DO NOT HESITATE TO TALK TO ME! I will be the nicest I can! :)
Its either this or I follow everyone else and go club, smoke, drink and find girls (in the less innocent sense). So hopefully some kind souls would have seen this and would wish to save me and be my buddies :D
Holy shit its going to be 2 years before I get back to schooling. I somehow miss the routine of schooling badly, despite having suffered in it for ages. Its pretty ironic that I'm actually saying this now. :(
And just hours ago, I was at the ECP for dinner with my family. I looked at the little kids running around and wrestling each other, and felt the full weight of my current position and age in life. I don't even remember how it felt like to be so carefree and innocent anymore...
PS- You'll probably notice that my hair is gone too :( :(
You promised me the sunrise,
at 7:00 AM
